Keep Calm & Move On!


If only I had a close friend to speak to about what I'm feeling. Everything would be better just to let it out to someone rather that smashing through the keyboard of my laptop.

I'm not crazy. I'm just nuts. I do things for the ones I care but do I ever get anything in return? No.
Do I ever ask for anything back? No.
But now, I just want something back. I want to be happy for what someone did. I never felt that in a really long time. I just miss it
I guess I should start being an ass. Don't really care about what people think and just live my own motherfuckin' life eh?

I wish I could not give a fuck but that's not me, I give a fuck about everything and everything. I'm not cold hearted. I'm not mean. I'm just born this way.

I'm letting go because I want you to be happy. I gotta remember that. You won't be happy with me because your mom keeps pressuring you being with me. You'd hate it. Honestly I'm not worth to keep. You wouldnt have to feel unhappy to love somoene. I hope you'll be better and find somoene worth keeping. Not like 'whats his name'. Find someone better than me. Someone who doesn't want sex as a return. Sex should be mutual, sex should have passion and desire. Remember that.
As much as I love you, I have to do this. I'll always be here to accompany you when you need it. I'll always be your fuck buddy.. Nah lol I'm just kidding. I don't wanna use you like a tool. Unless it's mutual but I want it to be sincere and special.

Yeah it's hard but that's what we can do. There's no win win situation in life. You either give, or you take. Can't have both at once.

I hate crying everynight, I hate not sleeping. I miss sleep. I don't know when I last sleep. Whenever I sleep, I dream of us being happy. I don't want that. If I don't sleep, I think of you. I can't live with that either.

Life, why are you oh-so-fucking-cruel